posted by owen on 2007-May-13.
The tenant tried to lecture me about paying the utility bills on time. Really you need to leave me alone. For one if you can't live without light, water and telephone for a couple a days every month then you clear have no life. Its not my fault they charge people for these things something something, path to righteousness something something, I forgot the quote. Your acting like a crazy mother of three.
A really funny thing happened last week. Goes to show that the more you know a person, they never cease to find new ways to annoy you in your daily life. Like the world was coming to an end. I always said the best is yet to come. Makes you wonder why people do the things they do. What inherent pleasure they get out of going all the way to another side of the island just to drink liquor that they can get at the dirty supermarket around the corner. Music they can hear at the local bar/party/cellphone. Maybe the journey has something to do with it. I never liked travelling long distances, for any reason, its rather unsettling. Hard to remember your way back to reality. A mess I don't want to clean up. No matter how much you avoid the crazy people they always draw you back out of your shell unto a downward slope. Islands and such. Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love.
I was asked on my birthday about what I look forward to and what it is I want. This is a tricky question. The only answer I could come up with ( off the top of head without lying on thursdays) was that I wanted to be happy. Kill me with love. Cause I already have everything I need. Maybe I live too much in the moment, I'll never as happy as I am right at this very moment as I'm typing on this keyboard eating rum cake and drinking white sparkling wine. Of course my wants may change over time, I may want to be less annoyed, ugly kids, people that don't suck the life out of me and a monkey. A rabid monkey. But all that I need is right here with me. Makes no sense wasting our time now, worrying about being happy later.