Spend less time looking at the world as if it is happening to you. Think of it as everything is happening "with you". We are all in this together. We spend so much time watching everything happen around us we get surprised when something bad happens to us. We get angry or annoyed with the fact of life. With so many things happening all the time, all around us it is easy to think of yourself as a part from all the chaos. The reality is that we are all passengers in the same car that is driving down the road. When bad things happen it happens to all of us. It is not only wishful thinking to think on the good things. One must think on the bad things as well. One must empathize with others. Stop being an angry bird.
I need to keep writing and resist the urge to switch to another tab. To not be consumed by quick and easy tasks that rob my time. The brain can only focus on 1 or 2 things. A clear mind with a defined goal is a wonderful thing. I can always switch to that other tab after I am finished with this logbook entry. The tab really is not going anywhere. In fact I should probably close these 20 open tabs and go back to the start. Free my running memory. [minutes later]. I am back now, closed 2 tabs.
The older I get the more I avoid chaos. I like to be somewhere and know what to expect. I am beginning to loath the journey even though much of everything is a journey. But I am trying to be more present and in the moment. Or maybe I have always been like this? Maybe I am just refining my younger self. Who knows. You can set out to do one thing then get totally side tracked by something that happens along the way. To see you again makes me smile. Misery loves company. Do not take too much stock in your own strengths.
any time they fall into the bad crowd they go silent. Its not that they dont have opinions it just that they only exist in bandwagons; BLM, gay rights, abortion, etc. Some of them work for the MIC. Others have military relatives who profit from death and destruction. Some are politicians who promote democracy knowing that its a carnival. Once they are told who the bad guy in the movie is they feel better about it. They are tomorrow people.
At this point I dont even think the 90s ever existed. There is some missing details from my memories of the time. Now it feels like something I saw in a movie. And everything we remember are just memories from movies.
Ramble all you want, we are old men. I find that went thinking that far back we only remember the good times or the fun events. We cant keep the bad times and the good times in our thoughts at the same time. We choose a couple points in time and we just cement that memory, thinking about it over and over while the rest fades away. Movies and music are special triggers.
It is Monday morning, I thought this new flu would have subsided by now. But alas I am still here sickish. I never got a second flu so soon before, maybe I am old and dying faster than I ever have been. I just realized that dying is process and not an event. Interesting.
So I skipped work but I had something that I need to trade with someone on the road which resulted in me sitting at a bus stop for 30 minutes. The fella was not very talkative but another guy fell off his bike and almost go run over by a semi truck - he survived. I think I got a picture of that too. After seeing that I decided to call it a day and went home.
I did not go straight home because I drove a road that I usually neglect. You know how I am when I am somewhere that I am not supposed to be - I buy patties and take pictures. I passed by a old couple selling Lichee oh of there Toyota Prado. I thought about them then stop to buy their over priced goods. I don’t know why I gave them a thought. She was a champ about it, oout there alone with her husband, brand new 100lb scale and their expensive car. I imagine they have a big yard with a huge tree. Sucks because I did not get any pictures of it all.
If you choose to ignore all the evil things going on in the world just so you can be blissfully ignorant then that is on you. Do not be surprised when I do not respond when you are activated to care about some random rage bait that you have been activated to care about. It is obvious that it is impossible to care about everything but there is evil in this world which does not care about your feelings about that new viral tictok video.
Human beings are inherently flawed creatures. You can never tell if someone is speaking from pure experience or they are repeating what they hear out of share ignorance. People often fear the future, things they cannot see. Its a new level of mental slavery that is gripping common people. The influx of content that is pure entertainment, disconnected from real life and real events makes it hard for people to even think critically. They just repeat the same things over and over no matter how things change. Its a new game.
People that speak in "futures" not only waste your time, they waste the time of everyone they talk to. They exist to spread information that they neither control nor are able to influence. I cannot even say they are are middle-men. They are worse. They are billboards on the side of the street in a bad neighborhood. If you visit the same spot in a year the billboards will be replaced by something else. You will be the only one thinking about what was being advertised.